A Glimpse into the Heart of a Physician
Editor’s Note: This is a series of real-life essays written by physicians for entry into medical school and into residency. We hope that by sharing these, those who are not physicians will have the opportunity to see the why and know a piece of our hearts. We also hope that those who are physicians will be inspired and touched and helped to remember why we do what we do- the meaning behind our work. Copying these will constitute plagiary.
WHAT MAKES THE HEART BEAT?
As a 3 year old child, I pretended to listen to hearts with a Fisher Price Stethoscope. I then became a 12 year old who experienced my first broken heart when my grandfather passed away. In high school, I grew more interested in the dynamics of the heart and wrote a 9th grade biology paper on “Myocardial Infarction”. Through the rest of my high school career, I found that my peers began to depend on me as a friend and listener. They began to confide in me as I was a founding member of a Peer Helper organization.
During my junior year of college, I was involved in trying to prevent a friend’s suicide, and through the process of losing this friend to suicide, learned about a troubled heart.
For example, I believe that the passion is one impetus behind the heart beat.
My passion happens to be people.
Through my training as an internal medicine resident, I will be exposed to both physical and mental illness, which undoubtedly affect the heart beat.
I am devoted to continue my commitment to life long learning through the study of medicine.
As a 27 year old, with life experiences and brief medical training, I have come to realize that the heart is more than a group of cells working as myocardium to pump blood. It has to be driven by more than the SA and AV nodes. I not only believe that there is a spiritual aspect of the heart which is so divinely interwoven with the physical, but also that four years of medical school is not enough time to truly comprehend this relationship.
It will take a lifetime of interacting with patients – through such acts as listening to them, developing trusting relationships with them, speaking to their family members, and watching them pass away – before I will better understand what makes the heart beat.